The Faithful One

Scholars think this may have been an early Church hymn; its quoted by Paul in 2 Tim 2:11-13. I think an appropriate title might be The Faithful One

"If we have died with him, we will also live with him;
if we endure, we will also reign with him
If we deny him, he will also deny us;
if we are faithless, he remains
Faithful."

I find myself in that last line far to often; faithless. Why am I so much like Peter, stepping out in the water walking and then sinking? Praise Christ that he is the Faithful One and that his mighty hand is there to pull me up.

This whole adoption process has shown me how weak I am and how faithless I can be....I am so sorry God. We talked to Maria's Panamanian counselor/psychologist and out of the blue she said that it was obviously the Holy Spirit that had led us to Maria (our oldest daughter has learning disabilities and requires much therapy just like Maria will....we were already set up to help Maria with many of her troubles....I can't think of many who would be a better fit for Maria than ourselves) And this counselor is right when I was with Maria and the idea of trying to adopt her came to me it was the most powerful internal feeling I had ever felt....I was treating other patients and I had to get up and leave the room and go into a room where I could be alone. I cried my eyes tearless; I will never forget that. Some may say God doesn't speak to you....I say His Spirit speaks to our Spirit helping to reveal his will; anyways God put the question in me....why shouldn't you take my child into your family? He is pretty convincing like that.

I will say I am ashamed at my faithlessness over these past 2+ years.....He hasn't heard much praise for taking care of Maria while we wait, He hasn't heard How thankful I am that He put all this together in perfect order; no what He has heard is "God when", "God why bring it together if it isn't going to happen" "God I can't take the unknown much longer". All I can really say is Praise Christ that HE IS FAITHFUL WHEN WE ARE FAITHLESS..... Your are ALMIGHTY LORD! Praise your NAME!